Something I nocticed

Something I noticed that hasn't changed in over 10 yrs is that I am constantly giving advice to everyone who I see, not because I want to but because they come to me and personally ask me what should they do when it comes to their bf or gf, or their friends who did this or that, or something about what their parents said. I've noticed that a lot of people are looking for acceptance, something that we all long for but the wrong type can be detrimental to your physical and mental health. One thing I noticed that is never good is jumping from relationship to relationship, and this is something that I am not immune to. Not taking the time out to revaluate your past relationship and take the time needed to grow from it will cause most people to fall back in to a relationship that mirrors your past failed relationship. You might think well things will be different, but if your doing the same thing you did in the last, and you picked a guy or girl who is the same as your ex, then your most likely doomed to repeat the past.

Please people, life is long and its wide, and there is enough time to learn and grow, don't waste your time trying to overly make things work. A good relationship take time and work, but if its doomed from the start because of your stance in the relationship then you will repeat the past.

"Only by accepting the past, can you alter it" - T.S.Eliot

I find myself .....

My last semester at Rutgers is now almost to a close, and I realize that I had a good run here. Great people, and good times but soon it will all be over. Well not totally over because I work here for the time being, helping out the basketball team as their manager till the end of the season which ends on Feb. 17th. The team is going great, were 3-1 so far and we have a game tonight, but I digress. Soon I hope to update on here more and more like how I used to do when I was on xanga ... maybe I will post some old posts from there onto here, those that are still relevant that is.

But, I sitting in Starbucks and I find myself thinking back on everything, what I have done here, the peoples lives I touched, the lives I saved, and I have a little smile, but not totally impressed. I could have done a lot more. I could have been a much better person, and I really see that I can be influenced by people, not easily but still. I want to stay solid, and steadfast, staying true to my beliefs, and to what I know to be right and not be swayed by every new person or idea that pops up.

I am just very thankful to my church who keeps me grounded, if it wasn't for my church, I would be a lost cause, so to speak, and I am just so very thankful.

Also, to ACN, a company that has helped me to become the leader and I want to be and financially free in 2010. This company is great, and with Donald Trump as my backer I know I am going really far.

Well this is all for now.

Im still going to Taiwan in the spring, and I will update more about that later.

Ciao~

New semester

A new semester, a new season. With the turning of the soon leaves, now, I to and turning a new book. 15 books to be exact. I am nearing the end of my undergrad, and with the passing of these last four classes, I will be reborn. The antics that I undergone over these few years were amusing and non-regrettable but all things have to come to a close. Although what characteristics, and personality that came out to be me will stick with me long after I leave these class rooms, halls, and lounges.

As I look up, i'm in one of my classes now, German Lit in English, i see a sign saying, "No Food or Drink Permitted in Classrooms". Thats a lie if I ever seen one. Laws posted but rarely enforces. Romanticism quotes and discussions whisper in the background. "The Sorrows of Young Werther", by Goethe, passion, love, in its purest form, and tragedy, driven mad by passion, a two edged sword. An I am sitting here listening to "Encore un verre", by the Seatbelts. While I am tempted to view the season finale of True Blood, season 2.

These past few years just blew by, I really don't know what I learned, though I have a greater insight into my major. God I love politics, international views, cultures, issues, and problems. I want to be in the mist of them all and find actual answers, and get them solved, and not have my own interests in the way, or added on like "pork" in a bill. My soon travels to Taiwan, China, and probably Japan and Thailand will be a time of really getting in the culture of the people and what they value the most within their freedoms. Im like a child looking at a issue, seeing the problem and giving a answer, simple, direct. That is what we need, no special interests, no "what do i get out of it" people, I even rather not to get paid, outside of my basic necessities being fulfilled.

The two problems I was to be involved in and have a direct hand in solving is theof Taiwanese Independence, and the re-uniting of Korea, maybe even calling it New Korea if agreed upon by Korea. I know I have a long road ahead of me, but I know with God guiding me, anything I set my mind to I can do. And along the way, the power of my God will show himself through me and around me.

Yes, I am a Christian, and believe in the awesome power of God to cut through injustice and make a way were there is no way. I've already seen plenty of examples where things were done that man couldn't get done, not in 100 years. I didn't mean for this post to go this way, but when you think about it, I can't separate my God from my desires, my church and my state are the same, and will always be......

Each and ever time I post on here I feel such a flow to write, scattered thoughts rush my brain wanting to come out. Like diarrhea of the brain.

next posts will be about - friends

Fashion Show pics

Well I spent so much time on the cloths that I didn't get proper pics or enough pic of the line of cloths. but I hope this helps. 

July Update-recap of the spring and looking to the future.

Well its been awhile since I talked about anything but there has recently been a few things that I wanted to talk about. I actually wish I could add video blogs because I would rather speak what I want to say then type it. 

My life is like a book, I try to be as open as I possible can, so people can see how I act and live and find some ways to better themselves as well. 

Well I wanted to update everyone on my life. Its July 2nd, and Im at Rutgers University's lounge in Camden, New Jersey. My past spring semester was very interesting. I took 4 classes and passed 2 classes while dropping one and failing another. I can only blame myself for taking on to much work during that semester. As most of you know I was involved in the fashion show at Rutgers University and it was amazing but it took a lot of time and took me away from my studies for a few weeks and it was a critical time for me, because it was close to finals. I also was involved in the SGA at my University. Its a position that I loved and gave up by not running for re-election because it was a lot of work and I didn't think I was going to be at the University in the fall. Most of you know that I was planning on traveling to Taiwan to attend classes at Feng Chia University for the summer and the fall. Well that dream didn't come through. I fell short on raising money for the airfare and tuition. I was accepted and had all my paperwork in order but just didn't have any financial backing. 

I also was to relaxed in my classes and didn't focus enough. I could have done better, I should have done better. Hanging out with friends and not doing my readings and studying is what mainly killed my grades. 

Well its the summer now and I am currently not working and I am getting my classes ready for the fall semester. Because I planned on going abroad I didn't schedule for classes for the fall in the spring when I had the chance to and the classes I need are full. Now I am trying to get into the classes and its taking longer then I want. Also, I'm not working because I put in my 2 weeks prior to me leaving so that I have leave my job on good terms and travel abroad and have a job waiting for me when I get back. After the 2 weeks were over and I left the job the job I met with the reality that I wasn't going and I had no job. I did get extensions from the University in Taiwan but I couldn't meet those either. 

There has been a lot going on but there is some good news. I am constantly planning and trying to look towards the future, the positive, and the destiny that God has for my life. After talking to my advisor at Rutgers I found out that I am only 4 classes away from graduating. This is something that I have been waiting for for such a long time. This fall, I am saying it now, I am focusing so hard, harder then I ever did before. I want, need, and will get all A's in my classes. I still need to add 2 more classes but I am confident that I will get the two classes and be more then ready for the classes. I don't get stressed easily, and even when the heat is on I am still not stressed, but I think I am going have to embrace just a little of it so I can focus more, and not take just a relaxed and nonchalant attitude towards everything. 

Now, my job situation. I have applied to many sales jobs, something that I am good in but some thing that I really don't want to do. But I didn't find a good and I am more then close to down with the hiring process. The job, I will not mention now, but its good and its not sales or anything close to it, and its a job that I can do over night so when the fall school semester starts I can still study and focus on my classes. 

Well this is enough for now. I am great full to those who are still reading and commenting. Thank you. 

Solomon~

Procrastination

Well its 3:54 am and I am making a post. 

I think I will call this procrastination. For awhile now I knew that I had to make cloths for this fashion show, and don't get me wrong I am making them, and they are turning out pretty much what I want, but the shear number of them are ...... ahhhh!!!

Why did I wait so long to start these. I know I will be done in time but thats just it. I will be done in time, while neglecting everything else that is important to me, like my classes that I paid money for, my friends, my job, and precious hours of sleep. 

Its 3:57, and I have a semi-working draft of a top that I am making. After spending almost 1 hr trying to get the bobbin to work on my sewing machine. I noticed a simple error, a step, a process that is apart of threading the needle. That little missed step costed me 1 hr, and a lot of progress.

Well the good part is that once I get this sample done, and can kick out a few pieces, and then alter the sample, and kick out a few more. Then make a few pleated skirts which i will have to make a sample also. "Maybe I will make that tonight, I mean, I know how to do it in theory.... but,....i should, i should do it now, because I can't bet on 'theory', right now". Ok, well after I get my first sample done, and I am almost there I will take another hr to create a working sample (minus the zipper) of a pleated skirt. Then I think I can call it a night, and get a few hours of sleep before I have to get up and go to my friends salon, to get my nails done, and a hair cut, and other pampering, that I am being begged to come and get. 

"Im listening to the Seatbelts, track 7, 'Mushroom Hunting", not one of there best, actually not really, good at all, but it was on and the opening kinda got my attention. 

Ok, well its 4:05 am now. I think I should get some sleep. 

I think the sample I have now is good but I need to add some measurement markings on it for future pieces I will be making and maybe after that I will make the pleated skirt, or at least make the pieces for it. 

Ok. Thats my procrastination rant, and what I may or may not do. By the time you read this it will hours/days/weeks/months since this incident happened. Leave a comment and ask what I actually did. 

Don't forget I will be posting a video or a link to the video of how the fashion show went. I am not sure if I will post the entire fashion show since there will be from 9 to 12 designers showing there items, or just mine. Maybe I will show mine, and then edit the best of and create another video for you all. 

Ok, well, Have a good night. 

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Update of the clothing line and fashion show

Ok, I just wanted to leave a update. I am currently making a lot of the outfits that you will see after April 2, which is the day I will be premiering my first line of cloths. I am not doing a lot, just about 10 pieces, maybe 12 if I have the time. So far I have supposedly 3 done, though I always want to change them, and by the end of this week, I hope to have 3 more done. Next week, I believe I am on spring break! maybe, not totally sure but I do get a spring break this month. But I will be spending majority of my tame finishing out the last few sets for the line. Whatever I can't get done I will finish it after the break. 

The most challenging part about this is the accessories that I will have to add to all the pieces so that it ties all together. 

But actually, as a whole, this is why I didn't go into fashion designing. Although I like it, and I ma fairly good, the sheer time and criticism, works me over the most. Maybe if I had better quarters, and work environment, and people around me who were in the same field as me, helping me and encouraging me, then maybe I would do it. But as it stands right now, I don't have the time or space, or the right surrounding to do anything as a career.

As it stood I was going to stream live the fashion show in its entirety on STICKAM and record it through it player and create links so that everyone can see it, but now I am thinking of using my Mac computers iMovie to record the show so I can edit and delete fillers, and stalls, and intermissions, and get right down to the cloths. And I can add kool graphics, lol, and post it on YouTube so everyone can see it. So I am not sure, but either way, you will love it. 

Well.....

i'm tired, and I want to make one more outfit tonight so i need my rest. 

"till next time.......space cowboy"

Fashion Show tryouts at Rutgers U

Well its that time again and I am getting ready for my fashion show in April, on the second. 

I've only done this show before once and I was a model, but this time I am a designer. The role I play very well and would prefer to be. I had designed and created many outfits, not all of them are with me due to the fact that I sold some and gave some away, but I am making more. The style that I ma going for is japanese lolita pop look. Below is a pic of what

 I mean. I will be posting pics and videos of the of the Show in April. I have a lot of work till then! but I am enjoying it all. 

Last night we have been going through a lot of male and female models, and I have exclusive video for everyone to see of how the last day for our

 model search went. This was the final night of tryouts. I'll post another video later when everyone is more refined. 

ENJOY the video taken and streamed live via Stickam.com

And check out my ">music and vid on my stickam link 

Sine I dont have much to post about, or actually there is a lot to post about but I dont have the time I think I will post some old entries from my xanga. 

Yes, I have a xanga. I had it before myspace and facebook were ever made, or very popular. My ex got me into it, actually there was another blog site called......I forget. it was a online journal. Does anyone know about it, or have a guess what it might be?

Well here it is. Comment please. 

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ok, that was a failure. 

Does anyone have any suggestions?

Katsucon 09'

Ok, This weekend I went to Katsucon in Arlington, Va. 

I took pics with my baby, but s you know if you read my last post, she is dead, and I don't know if I will revive her. But I can have her memory live on by showing you what pics she took during the last few moments of her life. 

So here they are enjoy. I will try to add more pics that my friends took. You might even get a pic or two of me.