My thought's on relationships.

Ok, so for awhile now I haven't posted and I know even though I say I will post more and more there are limitless times that I want to post or "blog" about something and I just don't get around to it, but this time I have to, this time I just need to purge.

I was talking to my so-called cousin (not actually my cousin) and she was asking about my relationship with a certain someone who will not be named, but she asked how everything was going and all and I gave the common, "everything is going ok" comment. After that she goes on to say that, "yeah, I like her for you, you guys make an awesome couple." Well I though about that and I was thinking, really? we make an awesome couple? and everything that caused problems and the good, just flooded my mind and I am very blunt and a yes or no type of guy, but at the same time, i'm not the type to ruffle someone feathers if I don't have to. So I commented with a :) and "thanks, but i'm not sold on it yet". And I'm not. I've been in amazing relationship, where I knew this would last for a long time, but things happen and it didn't stand the test of time, and i'm thinking well maybe the things that I don't think will last are actually the things that will last but the more and more I go through it and think about it and live it, i'm find myself telling myself, if this is how its going to be in order for this to be a long lasting thing then I'd rather be single.

Well my "cousin" goes on saying why is that, and is it because i'm a gemini, and she is a cancer (something that according to the zodiac are very bad for each other, and in my experience with 2 other cancers, it's so far very true) well that reminded me about that but that wasn't the total reason or a factor into my thought process about the relationship. But, the reason way was because we were together this prior week for the majority of the week and our two personalities started to clash, not in a major way but like they usually did but since we were away together we had to face it and not leave and it was getting frustrating, and these little incidents started from usually something very small or nothing. It's never a major drama but still have to use and choose my words carefully to calm her and myself and to put her at ease. I know having a relationship isn't always going to be easy but I want it to be easy, is that hard to ask for?

I don't mind the little challenges that a relationship might go through and it ends in us becoming stronger as a couple, but that;s not happening, i'm becoming more annoyed and wanting to just get away.